nothing was the same.

i have a lot of thoughts about a lot of things. situations i’ve been in, people i’ve known, the mountains of feelings i’ve left unsaid… there is so much i want to say, apologize for or justify and not apologize for. i want to publicly talk about things i’ve been harboring so i can cut the anchor on my writer’s block and finally be free. 

i’m not going to, though. at least, not now. not for a while. not when i still wake up some mornings and wonder will my entire day be ruined if i accidentally dwell on an old conversation or past relationship. it can still be too much sometimes. 

but. i did find this. 

arden cho, known for playing kira on teen wolf, posted this on her blog the other day and she says so much of how i feel. about myself and about people who are or have been in my life. so for now, i’ll leave it at that.

p.s. i now know every word to pretty much every song on drake’s nothing was the same album 👌🏽


here, here, and here.

i finished my final college course at the start of july. i began a third job the following week. summer’s never been my season, but july and august have been kind to me. 

i get paid to be around coffee and art. every. day.

jack in my crown porque i contain multitudes.

   una noche buena con mucha musica on a rooftop in georgia. vampires and witches were somehow involved but that’s not relevant. 

 i’m finding my voice again and she tastes like whiskey and ash.

seriously. art and coffee. be still my black heart.


there’s theatre tucked into my schedule too. lots of theatre.

i don’t know what even is my life…but i love it.